What's Your Reason?

         This will be the only post I write. This is my moms blog, on her point of view of my progress. She's done a great job so far, and I'm gonna keep letting her do what she's doing. But I thought you might want to hear from the direct source, of what this journey has been like so far.

        



Me - Spring 2012

         The first thing I always tell people when they ask me is that this scenario has completely remodeled my definition of both physical and mental pain. I wake up feeling pain, I go to bed feeling pain, eating brings pain, and breathing brings pain. Just writing this entry brings pain. With all this being said, from the readers point of view, it may seem like I'm at my lowest. And while this is temporarily going to be a negative situation, it's forced me to grow years in a span of a little under a month. 

       All throughout my recovery I've had a lot of time to self reflect. Self reflecting about my goals, my dreams, where I want to be in life, and where I'm currently at in life. And every time all this thinking brings me back to one question, 'What gets me up in the morning?'. Meaning, what's my reason to find motivation to get me out of bed in the morning. What do I have to tell myself, to find a reason to make it through the day? Should I get out of bed in hopes that I'll meet my dream girl? Maybe I should get out of bed so I can accomplish goals...

       Regardless of my reason, I'm sharing this information in hopes that you as the reader will ask yourself the same question. While some of you know exactly what gives you a passion for life, others may be completely lost. For all those who don't have a reason, try and think deeply about it, and find a reason. And no matter your reason, how simple it may seem, and how others may not necessarily understand, it's YOUR reason, and no one can take that from you.  Having a reason makes life easier, gives it purpose, and makes you more confident in the things you do. It almost alleviates all the pain life brings with it. 

        After thinking about this question for a while, I've found my reason. And with this reason, no amount of physical or mental pain I experience will bring me down. Because I know what i have passion for in this world, and I know what gives me motivation to do all the things I do, and to go through what I've been going through. No matter the setbacks that may come my way, or  the thoughts that may race through my head I'll be fine, because I've found my reason.